I went out today to a place called Bobcat Bite, miles outside of town where the trees form the closest thing to an ocean within two hundred miles, and the road looks like it's going to ascend to the sky after the next turn. The Bite itself is a small shack, about the size of a medium gas station convenience store; only half of that is tables. There's a large, hilly gravel lot, and a roofed porch where people can wait to get inside. The building is wooden, with a picture window and wall mosaics of kachinas on both sides of the door.

(Jess, is this the place you wanted to go to? I'm sorry we didn't make it. Hopefully over the summer. Scott, you might want to consider building up a meat tolerance. Greg, continue writing the blog.)

Alanna asked me if I wanted to go with her, because she felt like having a burger with somebody. She was inviting everybody who's in town over spring break, and two other people came, one a senior in Annapolis, the other a Santa Fe '06 graduate. Alanna and I got there first; she had written my name on the dry-erase board (complete with an inlaid photo of a bobcat) tacked on the outside wall, used as a table list. "I never like writing my own name on those things," she said. I wiped my name off and put hers. I don't like taking the responsibility of communicating with the staff. We talked loosely for a bit, and then a waitress came out and looked at the board. "A-lane-a?"

"Yes."

"We have a table if you're ready."

"You can skip us. Two other people haven't shown up yet."

Then she erased her name and wrote "Byron", the '06 graduate.

Saying that we weren't ready yet was perhaps a bad play. Her friends arrived around 7:15; we got a table a little bit after 8.

When they showed up, I realized that I recognized both of them, and they both recognized me. I stayed quiet for about half an hour, because that's just how I roll. I roll observant. I found that both of them are a type I never really got to know at St. John's: social, thin, aware, a little bit artistic, interested in word play and constantly acting out impromptu comic roles. Then again, maybe that describes most of my friends in Annapolis and I just didn't know it. Yes, come to think of it, that describes most of my friends in Maryland in high school too. Huh. This is something of a revelation. I'll definitely have to think about this more. For some reason I'm fascinated by the sort of relationships I observed tonight. I definitely lack them now for the most part, and even in the past I was always in the outskirts. People who have a response when asked, "What are you doing this weekend?" People who tell stories about things that happened to them in the last month. People who always seem to be keeping an eye on everyone around them to make sure they're being approved of. Does this make sense to anyone reading this? I've always thought that I perceive people in a way others don't recognize, and I feel a bit embarrassed when I try to describe it because it sounds like I'm full of shit.

Anyway, Bobcat Bite. Yes. The woman who had earlier mispronounced Alanna's name popped out every ten minutes and gave us updates on the table situation. We were waiting for one of two parties to leave, because there were only two tables that could seat four people, and each time she had to tell us that we couldn't come in yet. Finally, just before 7:50, she took our order while we were still outside, because they shut down their grill around then. Alanna kept asking people if we were also really hungry, or also excited, because she likes to create bonds, I guess.

Some of the people finally left, and we sat down. Everything looks very humble inside, with a six-stool bar, five round wooden tables, and pictures of Bobcats all over the walls. There isn't much room between any of the tables, and everyone is close to one wall or another. Our food came a few minutes after we sat down, and oh, wow, I've never seen burgers that look quite this good. These things are as thick as two ordinary burgers, perfectly formed and grilled, thick and juicy. This doesn't translate well into words, maybe, but afterward, Alanna asked me, "Do you feel the passion yet?" And I did. It was the first time I ever felt an inward glow after eating a hamburger. It may just have been my body's diversion of energy to my stomach to begin digesting this monster, but I felt it. Like I'd just finished swimming in the ocean, or touring a room full of Klee paintings. I just wanted to smile. It was a hamburger high.